who am I & who I wanna be

Saturday, November 17, 2007

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Thursday, December 07, 2006

Living in this moment....

what more beautiful can be describing present moment.....
waqt ki kaid mein zindagi hai magar, chand ghadiya yehi hain jo aajad hain, enko khookar meri jaan ja umar bhar na taraste raho..

It happens some time, I am here thinking of somewhere else...not necessarily past or future..may be it happen with everyone. If we see carefully...all of us remember our past moments. it can be both best and worst...future is something we always look for and a positive attitude says it to be nice only....
Does anyone live in present??..may be there are few people..I would love to know their approach of life...

Saturday, December 02, 2006

A personel journal of Nov-06 from my life....

I have not written from many days...actually I tried two three times ..but nothing comes properly..so I just left it drafted. What I am thinking now, why I was looking for something really good stuff to write...I mean it's my blog, I can write whatever I want to....well the previous month was good, in context of I didnt need to keep myself busy...it was just automatically...:)
Here are some of the memories I have from this beautiful passed time--
* I went (with my sweetheart) to Orlando-Florida on thanksgiving weekend..The whole trip was awesome..It was more of a get-together of family friends from different places on one place..it was fun to be with all of them....moreover we went to visit Universal Studio parks...and had many adventures rides..we had so much of different varieties of indian food at home..that was really amazing....humm.....I just went back to that time..excuse me!!!
* well, I made lots of indian friends now here. The one thing I just hated earlier gossiping ladies. now I am simply just a part of it..and I enjoy it too...:) even though I dont like it, but still..there is some fun ..that's why ladies do...isn't it???
* Had a great time with honey.....whether its a dinner on dining table, or shopping for groceries, or doing laundry on weekends, or watching movies, he teaching me technically ,or a romantic long drive, or some more stuff....
* had a nice time with me too by studying something technical, by doing bit of gym etc., cooking mrng/evening food, sleeping as much as I want, ....really missed writing.
now what......I guess nothing is left from the passed one..so let me move to the present one..It's the last month of this year 2006. I am thankful to my stars this year...I really had great moments from this year..(The biggest one I married this year.)..now only few moments are left to come...and I wanna live them fully as they come to me!!!

Friday, November 10, 2006

that's life...

I have come with a query for everyone who read out this post... What do you think life is:- Here are some of the points:-
* Love
* Dreams
* Duty/Bindaas
* Mystery
* more ???
I think everyone of us has seen different phases of life...for each of us it has turned out differently, different experiences....I feel its just a chemistry of all these or something more than that...
when you grow up ...there will be many ups and downs of what we called is experience. I am not sure what I am describing it as....something which is uncertain, in which you are not sure about the next moment,.....may be that's life.
This is human being surviving nature only who plan out things after knowing also that may be it wont go according to it....ha ha ha ....but here we apply maths as well that our planning will be true only for 90% cases.....and it goes that way too.
Dreams are awesome. I am not talking about stupid night dreams, those which we can see from open eyes, and want them to come true. Positive, down to earth, inspiring dreams bring us success, happiness. They commonly show one ups of one's life.
Besides dreams we have some realities which we can call as duties, these make us more strong, lovable,.....in one word matured....these are not ups nor even downs... just stable.
Duties can be categorised into: - towards our loved ones, towards our society, and most importantly towards ourselves.
I remember one beautiful line I read somewhere.....
when I slept I found life is a beauty...I woke up and saw its a duty....

Love is one beautiful aspect of everyone's life....Imagine you are with your near and dear ones, with your family,.....how much happy you are, may be that time you wont feel it...Love will make you realise when you are apart from them....I think this is its quality.
Love is the least but not the last thing....this line is controversial....because without love your life is empty. May be you are successful.....so you can live ur life without it.

I dont want talk about mysteries,....as they are just unplanned..what shall I write about unknown things or mishappening...but noone should worry about them as they just happen....part of life, part of experiece....
humm....There is one practical comment from some ghazal
kabhi kisi ko muqqal jehan nahi milta, kehin jameen to kehin aasma nahi milta
more???
you guys have to tell me ....this section is left for you..:)...have a good life!!!!

Monday, October 09, 2006

beddy-bye!!!!

I remember, in my childhood I was a very active kid...when I was nearly less than 10. I was like most of the other naughty kids. Whenever my mumma asked me to sleep at daytime I never did...:)..as when I came in my early teen I was more lithargic than earlier. I remember, getting up early in the morning and having the physics/chemistry book in my hands with the closed eyes sometimes...:). At that time I never liked morning itself ...I used to think if its possible that 4:00 am to 6:00 am, just miss from the clock anyhow...:( ..but it never disappeared.

Sleeping...It's a natural periodic state of rest for body and mind as well....so much of comfort just come from the word itself...A normal sleep is of 6-8 hours...it varies from person to person. Ask those who doesn't get sufficient time for it...they just value it like anything.
what happen when you sleep more or get more time for it????.......
I always dreamed for it....but now its not a charm anymore. I guess becuase earlier when I was a student, I used to have a strict daily routine..get-up early, study for 2 hours, go to school,.....so it used to be in my dreams....but its no more hobby for me....
It just happen with time...hobbies change...like this time I can very well have a nice nap, but I am Blogging...:).