who am I & who I wanna be

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

what makes me feel "I am not in India"

It has been almost one month, I am in United States of America . Life is pretty comfortable here. One of the first thing, I noticed here is american people always say to you "Hi, with a smile", whether they know you or not..it doesn't matter. While starting a conversation, this actually makes you feel good and comfortable with them...While coming over here I was enough scared of getting bored, as I was a working professional in my country...but now I think...just by making yourself busy drops that scary idea...:)....Being a good housewife is not a very simple job...and I guess every woman wants to be a good housewife. This idea may clash with others who dont think this way..but it's just my personel thought.
But still...what is left???
*When I see American Flag anywhere, it reminds me of "Tiranga"...and a sudden thought of being a foreigner here.
*While talking to people, when the spoken English gives me a professional touch whereas spoken Hindi is in blood.
May be, as I'll get more familiar with this place..I'll use to see this flag and then that sudden thought may disappear.....
may not be..since in India, I brought up and did my school, college, job.....
I am just emotionally attached to it....and I really miss it for everything...

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Mistake!!!!

What if you always end up with a wrong decision? A mistake followed by a next mistake. You try to correct them, but again commit a mistake. Your life becomes miserable. Your lose your confidence. One thing I would like to say you here.. there is a little hope, what if you never take a correct decision....but still your actions forms a path to others that they should not lead...since your life essence are wrong actions, others should identify those actions. Why dont you think this way: " May be the purpose of your life has only to serve as a warning to others". May be then you ended up with a little bit increased confidence....and your next decision will never be a mistake....dont take it this way that you commit a mistake to serve an example to others.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Balance in life!!!

I have received heavy comments on the previous post...still come up with the new post in same series.....before I say something I would like to ask you one question,
"Do u keep a balance in your life? and if yes then how and if no ....then what?"
well, you might be thinking, I am crazy or what? asking a bit stupid question.....but think on and tell me....do you?
Almost all of us live life in a balanced way. There are kind of balances we need to have : physical balance, mental balance. It's well known fact that if we are physically fit, then we are mentally fit too. But here I wanna talk about losing mental balance....Have u ever lost yours?
In what circumastances a person can lose his/her mental balance. Well, these are some actual possible scenerios:---
*May be you are too happy to control yourself? believe me you can forget everything, you sometimes want to fly with time.... you want to share these unbalanced moments with your loved ones and you do so....now you must be thinking what is there to be unbalanced in it...
yes it is.......Whenever you are too happy, you wanna lose control on yourself....you want to do something funny, childish, making fun around, teasing people, laugh..laugh like anything, ..etc...and do something stupid, weired which is not expected from you...but believe me it's fun....wanna try it out!!! It's mostly positive and creative.....you'll always end up with a new energy....sounds interesting..isn't it?
* The other can be when you are depressed...and you forget everything....you are not aware of what's all going in your surroundings. you are not in your control..and the worst thing is everyone except you knows it that you are not balanced rightnow...you can see only yourself..no one else.
What is the difference between the two?...The first one is desireable while the second it not.
None of us want to see ourselves depressed, nobody wants to lose mental peace...
Now the question is here, how you are going to keep your equilibrium?.. I have read it somewhere...but liked it too much
"Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling some 5 balls in the air, you can name them as work, family, health, friends and spirit.
You are keeping all of these balls in the air. soon you'll understand, the work is a rubber ball if you drop it, it'll bounce back to you.
But the other 4 balls are of glass, if you drop once, it'll be shattered and never be the same.....you must understand this and strive for the balance in your life."
If you think on it...it's true...maintain your health(physical balance),....sometimes lose happily your balance with your family and friends but never fail to keep your balance so that you lose your spirit.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Why Realtionships are so important?

Hi i am back again...it seems I got blogging fever. Actually I was thinking what shall be the next post in my blog? so I started writing just to see where I end up, or to catch up what's all moving in my mind. what rightnow I am feeling is, lots of things are there but it just doesn't come out.
Let me try to catch something......."Why Realtionships are so important for human being?"
Obviously, here I am talking about one to one relationship. Lets start when you came into the world..starting from the day one, you had so many relations around..and the most important one is mother. This is pretty well known by all of us...wherever we live around the world. here my point of concentration is certainly not this
So what all kind of relations you can have in your whole life?...that's pretty hard to find. Lets try to accumulate some of them: some are defined, well-known...whereas others are undefined. Whatever it is.....there is definately a bond needed...which can differ...
you may spent whole of your life just in search of affection, love.
or may be you are lucky, you have already found it.
or may be you are expecting it to come to your way soon.
But, believe me...it will not be the case that you have it ...but not pretty sure whether it's the same or not...because when you find that person you'll certainly realise that he/she is the one or not..sometimes you may get confuse..but not for long and that's for sure.
Now criteria of love is not specific....it's as wide as sky...or may be it's more than that..and I dont have words to explain it...well I am also not going to explain the term love over here....but it's too precious to everyone of us..for you also ...isn't it?...
till here we discussed about relations those are delineated by you.... what about those which you feel... but can't explain, can't accept....?
Probably you are scared to concede this affection....as this is
socially unacceptable. or if you accept them truely then what will happen to other defined relations?.. May be that's why people dont acknowledge these affections easily...but what would you do if you come into this trap?...that's again a pretty hard question to answer....but think on....
I suggest you to think before entering into these unknown ..but strong bonds. Your life is precious for your own individual's personality as well for those for whom you matters a lot....because if you dont think ...then for your whole life you'll make efforts to name them. you'll struggle with the society, with your defined bonds, and the most important your own....
May be you dont realise but you matters to yourself...and that's most important you should never forget...so beware of unknown but always welcome those which you can name....
This is what khushi feels..for her relationships are important for everyone,...for you , for me, for us.... and she love to have all of them...this is something she learnt from life.


I am initially inspired by my honey for blogging. He stimulated it from one of his friend...this chain continues and I entered into the blogging world. I have read some of the blogs on bloggers.com and felt people used to write whatever they feel, Some try to capture the funniest moments , memorable incidences....but what I am going to do...
I am not sure, because sometimes I wanna write something but not pretty sure what....? May be-
* I want to blog so that I can complete my incomeplete sentences(....) into which I always leave something.
* Enhancing my writing capabilities.
* spend time analyzing myself, that is one thing I love to whenever I am alone.
* list will include many more as I'll start blogging and get more stuff for it.